In Youth

by Caution Crow

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chrisanthemum I absolutely loved this album from start to finish, and I can't wait for more Favorite track: Too [[hot outside]] for an audience, too bright to sleep.
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jshu thanks for introducing grouper Favorite track: Too [[hot outside]] for an audience, too bright to sleep.
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Elias Williamson what the FUCK this is GOOD Favorite track: Too [[hot outside]] for an audience, too bright to sleep.
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about

this is a labor of love recorded with a shitty keyboard in garageband. i think i told myself i wasn't allowed to write songs about people anymore or about my brain, and then i took a step back and realized how stupid that sounds.

i met you september 11th and i do not regret it, because i have made a whole lot of art out of it and feel beautiful for that.

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released September 11, 2016

thank you to the lovely hailey lynch-bastion for allowing me to use one of your songs as a backing track to a poem about coming home. when i was first in residential back in 2014, your music was a constant, and i am honored to call you my friend.

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Caution Crow Portland, Oregon

caution crow is actually a girl named hannah unkrich she is twenty she lives in a small room with one window one time she wrote an album about the butterfly effect of going for a cigarette rumor has it she is writing an album about something a little spookier themed ... more

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Track Name: Too [[hot outside]] for an audience, too bright to sleep
i cannot quite recall the way your hands would brace the corners of the bed
and touch the edges of my mind
or the way our ankles touched
like we were trying to make a fire with our bones
and if we left the window open for the breeze
or so everyone could see us

but i remember it was
hot outside
it was hot outside

i cannot quite perceive the mess we made
or who tore more holes in the other one’s brain
and how many people that we left, all broken and bloody
as we went along our merry way
the space between our bodies was pale like we were dead
we were cold under the covers

but it was
hot outside
it was hot outside

i cannot quite recall the sentences you whispered to the air
you were too quiet in the afternoon
it wasn’t dark enough to say anything important
so did you say anything at all?
in that moment, i can’t tell, you might have loved me, too

but i remember it was
hot outside
it was hot outside
it was hot outside
it was hot outside
Track Name: Thoughts on a human and an ocean, no specific human, no [[specific ocean]]
since you left,
it's been so hard to figure myself out
and since you've left,
i've cast a steady doubt upon myself

the bandages of words
too few and far between to stitch my body up
and words will fail
to bridge the tidal waves that stand between us

for the last time we stumbled into grace
i found it hard to ignore the thunder in your face
weather changes as the weather is wont to do
i don't want to, i don't want to anchor you

we wore us out
heaven help me, i let reason out of view
under the stars
i dug myself a deep, deep grave, too

i tried hard
to keep my distance but i fled too far
cut my hair
over the bathroom sink to stay alive when we’re apart

for the last time we stumbled into grace
i found it hard to ignore the thunder in your face
weather changes as the weather is wont to do
i don't want to, i don't want to anchor you

it's been a while
and i don't claim to know much more
but i do hope
you'll return home happy and unburdened and whole

for the last time we stumbled into grace
i found it hard to ignore the thunder in your face
weather changes as the weather is wont to do
i don't want to, i don't want to anchor you

for the last time we stumbled into grace
i found it hard to ignore the thunder in your face
weather changes as the weather is wont to do
i don't want to, i don't want to anchor you
Track Name: [[Something happened]] on september 11th and it had nothing to do with the world trade center
I lost four pounds when I was living in london
I lost two more pounds listening to that record on repeat
it was your favorite so i wanted to like it too
but it just sounded like tv static

I lost my house keys in Colorado
because at once I was so excited to see you
I think I've fallen in love again
god I'm such a fucking masochist for you baby

i lost my mind on september eleventh
i lost my mind a while before that, really
now when i see you it feels like i’ve been branded
and i can't put that any other way

I lost my mind
I lost my mind I lost my mind I lost my mind
i don’t know how to be your messiah
i don’t know how to be your muse